Do you know the feeling of wanting to or even needing to cry but the tears won’t come? It’s like when you’re nauseous but can’t throw up. Well, I have been feeling like this for the last week and a bit and for the life of me I cannot figure out why.

I have been able to shed some tears while watching a film (Mrs Doubtfire) or TV documentary (John and Joe Bishop: Life after Deaf) but not enough to help me to shift the tearfulness. I really need to have a good proper cry but no idea why. I have been spending time just feeling the sorrow and tearfulness and yet got no further along to understanding the Why? of it yet.

My body is obviously needing to expel some emotional or mental energy and I know I will feel so much better for it too, if I could just get the tears to flow. But for now I just keep being inquisitive of the feelings and doing what I can to ensure they don’t push my body into a full on flare up.